So has some of you may or may not know me and tav are trying for a baby. I know right now not the smartest decision but we really want to start our family young. Lately though i have begun to get extremely emotional over the idea of having a baby. I just can't get my mind off my son. I have always felt this void like a small hole in my heart and i know its for my son, for all the moments in his life I am missing out on. I'm afraid that wanting another baby is just my way to try and fill that void I have been feeling for the last 3 and 1/2 years. I love my son so much and i don't regret the decision i made by placing him with his family. My son is so loved. I am also scared of all the miscarriages I've had, that the doctors warned me was very possible with me being high risk. I'm scared that i may have given up the only child i will ever have. Everyday is a roller coaster. I am so thankful for husbands love and support in putting up with my stubbornness cause if he had his way, he would get fixed so i couldn't get pregnant at all. But to me the most beautiful i have ever felt in my entire life was when i was pregnant and i want to experience that again.
I just needed a vent and i will prolly do this again keeping everyone updated on our TTC journey.
2.15.2010
2.06.2010
Moving Day Adventures
Waking up yesterday to the sound of rain hitting our house was just the beggining. Then being the procrastinators Tavis and I are we still had packing to finish before the big move. That is about when things started falling apart. So the plan was to start moving by noon cause we only had a truck from about noon to 3. So me and Tavis went to the apartments to finish the contract and get are keys at about 11 that morning. When we got there we find out that they had failed to mention move in times weren't until 3. I mean really what kind of apartments have scheduled move in times. This created a big problem seeing how we only had a truck from noon to 3 and i had to babysit my nieces 3 to 7. So we went back to our old place twiddling our thumbs just trying to figure out what the crap we were going to do now. While still trying to figure out how we were going to move we went back to the apartments at 3 to get our keys so I could at least have one by the time I got done babysitting. Then we find out, they still aren't done cleaning our apartment that it wouldn't be ready for at least another hour. Which was really no big deal cause we still have no way to move our stuff but just the fact that they had known we were moving into that apartment for a week and they weren't done cleaning it until 4 'o clock when they were supposed to have it done by 3, just kinda topped my day. Finally at about 6:30 right as i'm finishing up babysitting we were able to find a truck to move. So we ended up moving all of our stuff at night in the rain. and then unpacking and setting up our bedroom til close to 11 o clock that night. oh my gosh moving sucks.
I'm just glad me and my hubby finally have our own place after 6 months of searching.
so yeah thats my moving drama.
Lovss Whitney
I'm just glad me and my hubby finally have our own place after 6 months of searching.
so yeah thats my moving drama.
Lovss Whitney
1.29.2010
Our First Apartment!!!!
Yay i signed the contract today on Tavis and My new apartment and cannot freaking even wait! We move in next friday. Yay!
Dang i just realized i have alot of packing to do. But seriously WOOT!!!!!!
Dang i just realized i have alot of packing to do. But seriously WOOT!!!!!!
1.24.2010
3rd times the charm (sorry it's long)
It was strange the way we met, or should i say didn't meet.
Without a doubt in my mind i know that God was intervening with us.
The First time we didn't meet was in 2002 when we were both on a movie set together he an extra me a gopher. Spending a lot of time in close quarters and we never noticed each other.
The Second time was the summer of 2005, and I at the time was just starting a new relationship and he had just graduated high school and was getting out on his own. Tavis had just bought a motorcycle to ride with his friends cause that was just what they did. He ended up spending the entire summer at my house working on his motorcycle with my now brother in law Curtis. Just so happened he was really good friends with my sisters boyfriends little brother. ( I know stupid and complicated but yeah point is..) We never even noticed each other.
Then in 2006 is when we began our trials that would lead us to each other.
I had gotten pregnant out of marriage, was not with the father anymore (he had already moved onto a new GF by the time i found out i was pregnant, was about to begin my senior year of high school. My real trial was placing my son for adoption. I ended up getting really angry at God for letting all this pain happen to me, and in return began to party. I was in a bad place for a long time.
Tavis himself thinking he was all cool being out on his own started to get into trouble himself trying to experience the world more which lead to him getting into trouble with the law, and falling away from his family, and falling away from his church.
December 14, 2007 We though friends were introduced to The Rock Church. Where through amazing teachers were able to truly find God in our lives and experience God and The Bible in a whole new way. I accepted Christ back into my life February 15th, It was around that time Tavis had started noticing me and i am him but we still had not met. It wasn't until Tavis was getting ready to accept Christ into his life that we met. Right after i was re-baptized on February 29th did i approach Tavis at church. Then on Tavis' 21st birthday did he realize how much he wanted God in his life and accepted Christ. That was also the first time we hung out.
A few days later we left with a large group of church members to a church conference in Fort Collins, CO. Which began our infatuation. Over the course of 4 days we were practically inseparable. We began with a simple game of 20 questions to get to know each other which evolved into 200 questions through out the entire course of the weekend. When returning we got back to Utah he didn't want to go home so i told him to just stay at my house and we ended up taking a nap, not waking up til 2:00 am on March 17. Continuing our little game which lead to Tavis asking me one of the most important questions he ever could.
Quote,
"Ok, ok. I have the perfect question. Will you be my GF Homeslice?"
"Your what?"
"My girlfriend."
And the rest is history. and that is how we began.
Lovss Whitney
Without a doubt in my mind i know that God was intervening with us.
The First time we didn't meet was in 2002 when we were both on a movie set together he an extra me a gopher. Spending a lot of time in close quarters and we never noticed each other.
The Second time was the summer of 2005, and I at the time was just starting a new relationship and he had just graduated high school and was getting out on his own. Tavis had just bought a motorcycle to ride with his friends cause that was just what they did. He ended up spending the entire summer at my house working on his motorcycle with my now brother in law Curtis. Just so happened he was really good friends with my sisters boyfriends little brother. ( I know stupid and complicated but yeah point is..) We never even noticed each other.
Then in 2006 is when we began our trials that would lead us to each other.
I had gotten pregnant out of marriage, was not with the father anymore (he had already moved onto a new GF by the time i found out i was pregnant, was about to begin my senior year of high school. My real trial was placing my son for adoption. I ended up getting really angry at God for letting all this pain happen to me, and in return began to party. I was in a bad place for a long time.
Tavis himself thinking he was all cool being out on his own started to get into trouble himself trying to experience the world more which lead to him getting into trouble with the law, and falling away from his family, and falling away from his church.
December 14, 2007 We though friends were introduced to The Rock Church. Where through amazing teachers were able to truly find God in our lives and experience God and The Bible in a whole new way. I accepted Christ back into my life February 15th, It was around that time Tavis had started noticing me and i am him but we still had not met. It wasn't until Tavis was getting ready to accept Christ into his life that we met. Right after i was re-baptized on February 29th did i approach Tavis at church. Then on Tavis' 21st birthday did he realize how much he wanted God in his life and accepted Christ. That was also the first time we hung out.
A few days later we left with a large group of church members to a church conference in Fort Collins, CO. Which began our infatuation. Over the course of 4 days we were practically inseparable. We began with a simple game of 20 questions to get to know each other which evolved into 200 questions through out the entire course of the weekend. When returning we got back to Utah he didn't want to go home so i told him to just stay at my house and we ended up taking a nap, not waking up til 2:00 am on March 17. Continuing our little game which lead to Tavis asking me one of the most important questions he ever could.
Quote,
"Ok, ok. I have the perfect question. Will you be my GF Homeslice?"
"Your what?"
"My girlfriend."
And the rest is history. and that is how we began.
Lovss Whitney
1.23.2010
In it for the long run
Hey lovely people,
I got this idea from the awesome Dev and Chi,
A blog about the journey of two people in love.
So this is the blog i've created to keep everyone in on the loop of Tav and I.
Married September 26, 2009
So four months later and all i can say is,
"I knew this wouldn't be easy"
We are looking for our first place right now and that is a challenge in and of it's own. Tavis is having a really hard time finding work and has been out of work for 2 months now but lucky for me i was just promoted at work, so yeah sure money is a little tight but we are making it work. Right now thats whats going on. i will have more updates has our journey progresses.
THANKS
MUCH LOVE
WHITNEY ALBERTSON
I got this idea from the awesome Dev and Chi,
A blog about the journey of two people in love.
So this is the blog i've created to keep everyone in on the loop of Tav and I.
Married September 26, 2009
So four months later and all i can say is,
"I knew this wouldn't be easy"
We are looking for our first place right now and that is a challenge in and of it's own. Tavis is having a really hard time finding work and has been out of work for 2 months now but lucky for me i was just promoted at work, so yeah sure money is a little tight but we are making it work. Right now thats whats going on. i will have more updates has our journey progresses.
THANKS
MUCH LOVE
WHITNEY ALBERTSON
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