Corby John Morris "CJ" 1987-2011

CJ, You were such a great friend and I can't believe your gone. It's so hard for me to wrap my head around the idea. We have had so many good memories, and you will be missed so much by so many.

Death is real and happens all the time, but for me it's hard for me to process the idea that someone is no longer here. I almost hate myself because I can't cry when a person dies. Maybe it's cause I know they are in a better place. They are with God again. 

So much death around me right now...

Last month I lost my Grandma Fackrell and she lived such a great and long life. I will miss her so much. I haven't even really processed that cause she lived 2 hours away so I only visited her maybe once a year. It makes me really sad that my daughter will never know her.

Then a few weeks ago, Tavis lost one of his dear friends that he grew up with. I think it is especially hard when it's someone so young who dies and they die so suddenly.

And now CJ. I feel for his family and especially for my best friend Jamie who was until a few weeks ago engaged to him. They were together for so long. Almost has long as me and Tavis.


05/01/11- Today I found out that one of my parents friends a guy a would consider an uncle and a good friend of mine passed away. Kyle has been battling diabetes and about a year ago he got hurt at work and since has been struggling with an infection caused by the combination of two. Well it got the better of him and he passed away.


I am so sick of all this death. People will never get to see again.


It's not fair. 

I guess that is all I have to say.

Miss you Buddy.

week 2

One thing I love::: My family i always have such a fun time with them, they crack me up.Last saturday we all got together to take a huge family pic. It was so great seeing all of them.

One thing i wan to change::: My relationship with some of my friends. I'm more than just someone to go to when things are wrong. I'm always here.

How to change it::: hang out with them more.

I stole this from my friend Lillie. I've already made my long term goals and by making this goal it will help me keep one of those goals of needing to blog more.

Each week I will post

1 thing I love.
1 thing I want to change.
how I am going to change it. 



So starting today:

I love the way Peyton smiles whenever she sees Tavis. When he comes home from work or when he wakes up and comes out to the living room. It seriously melts my heart. He can always manage to get the biggest grins out of her. I knew the second she was born she had him wrapped around her tiny fingers, it was the look in his eyes at that moment.

One thing I SERIOUSLY need to change is my avoidance of housework. It is ridiculous. I will get up with Peyton at like 6 in the morning and we come out to watch TV and eat, then we will work on her development, with reading, playing and working out. (if she cooperates)The TV is on all day unless we go for a walk which we do almost everyday, and while we are out that's the only time it is off. Then while she is napping I will usually either work on my wedding planning business or just Facebook. Then Tavis will get home from work and I'll do dinner then it's our bed time. It's like I can always find an excuse.

I need to make a real schedule of daily tasks. And do one room a day. No more excuses I can't be lazy.

1. Go to wikipedia and hit "random." The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band: Lydia Foy

2. Go to quotationspage.com and hit "random". The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album: You had to be there

3. Go to flickr and click on “explore the ...last seven days.” Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover

4. Use paint/photoshop/picnik.com/whatever to put it all together. Voila.